written by Allee at Tuesday 23 April 2019 & got 0 Comments
good evening :)
life update : im here surrounding myself with positivity every night before sleep and thanks to god, writing here really helps. it makes me feel like everything inside me flying away chasing its shadow to the moon . and yeah someone decided to come into my life and made my days better and yep I forgive myself. I forgive myself for being such a idiot for letting them into my life and for being a coward trapping myself this in shitty loop . and Im giving myself a second chance now to be more wise and independent. life's not made for despair.. Im trying to get rid of the toxicity in my life, even though it was a part of myself actually, but I think I did better than ever. I started to take care of me more and my things and things work out now ;) well sometimes that void and sadness filling inside me and the anxieties still there. maybe there's no cure for this? but like I said im trying my best to surround myself with good vibes because I don't deserve this and they don't deserve me so im trying to walk away from this hollow. i can feel the sunshines now and I can feel things now . not completely . but I will be .
I told ya, I am not weak, I can make things better .
written by Allee atTuesday 23 April 2019 & got 0 Comments
good evening :)
life update : im here surrounding myself with positivity every night before sleep and thanks to god, writing here really helps. it makes me feel like everything inside me flying away chasing its shadow to the moon . and yeah someone decided to come into my life and made my days better and yep I forgive myself. I forgive myself for being such a idiot for letting them into my life and for being a coward trapping myself this in shitty loop . and Im giving myself a second chance now to be more wise and independent. life's not made for despair.. Im trying to get rid of the toxicity in my life, even though it was a part of myself actually, but I think I did better than ever. I started to take care of me more and my things and things work out now ;) well sometimes that void and sadness filling inside me and the anxieties still there. maybe there's no cure for this? but like I said im trying my best to surround myself with good vibes because I don't deserve this and they don't deserve me so im trying to walk away from this hollow. i can feel the sunshines now and I can feel things now . not completely . but I will be .
I told ya, I am not weak, I can make things better .
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Biorapgy: Hello everyone. i changed this 'profile' to something that looks like a 15-year-old-girl . i decided to speak english in order to improve my english. so if it's wrong, please let me know ;) it's really bad tho. im neither girly nor boyish, yet causal. i love eating and read. if you don't ask, I don't answer alright. have a good day everyone. kay before, i blogged about kpop , yep mostly about kpop profiles (i was so young back then) and eventually i want to delete it so much but i'm too lazy to do that and i have tons of entries about kpop. hm and i decided to start anew and writes about my life so it will be one of the proofs while i'm growing up bcause i realized i might be loving this blog and read it over and over again when i'm gray and will smiles alone. if you been following my blog for a long time, you knew that i'm axo fans but i'm not exo-l untill OT12 comeback and i'm having a huge crush on b.i (ask me why later) . hm anything else? tqsm hm yeah the pic above is a picture of me when i'm 13, im just toooooo childish back then and im writing this in the middle of night and i was so sleepy so im sorry. hey hello. do you read above? funny. I am older now. but Im gonna let it there to remind me of my dumb strike. I hope you don't read this page, really if you're reading it rn. stop. I made ur life living hell. jk im not funny nor serious, so if you wanna be a jerk, just get your ass out of here. I don't need you, I got plenty of jerks already. uhm you cant find me in gps, imm not exist. forgot about this piece of shit but here we are, I came back for you, if you don't ask, I don't answer. have a good day everyone. so shit, here we go
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